Hurts

What a bad day. It was a wonderful evening, but somebody gotta ruin it for me. Why? Fucked up!

Kavita, my housemate and I got nothing better to do. So like always when we are bored, we’ll go out for a walk, around our uni. Yea its bored. But that’s better than waiting for almost 1 hour for internet in our rooms.

So we went walking…walking.. then we reach the student center. Damn is was far. But I gotta take out money and Kavita gotta buy her facial washer. Then we went to the mini mart. And on our way home we say Yazen a.k.a what I call the laser blaster. His a straight talker kindda guy. He says what he thinks. Sometimes its good, sometimes it hurts others. And guess what,Zain don’t like him. He fought with Yazen’s friends ones. And he told me Yazen and his friends, Arafat, Abbas and Chip are not good guys. And he ask me to stay away from them. How can i? They are my friends before I meet Zain. It sounds easy but its hard.

SO we were in student center coming home. Yazen followed us. On our back home, a lot of international students saying hii to him. Even the ones he don’t know. So, I was scard and before anything happens, I text Zain and told him that Yazen join us to hostel. And he was pissed off! He said why go with Yazen??Why talke to him.

THE PROBLEM IS I DIDN’T TALK TO HIM. AND HE CAME JOINING US. THIS IS A FREE COUNTRY! That’s was the issue.

We fought like the whole night and that night we didn’t even meet. Damn! I was so missing him. I went home. Still texting him and asking him to calm down. And he replied? ‘ stop texting me! Stop calling me! I don’t want to talk to you right now!’

Shit! I was in big trouble. This is the first time we fight, BIG time.

So I did somethings to solve it out. I asked Kavita to call Zain and tell her what happen. And she did her thing and said ‘hey. I like you’. Then he said ‘so’ nice right? Lol

Then she said ‘ do you hv a gf?’ and he said ‘NO!’ whhhhhhhyyy??? Damn

But he also said that his not available. So that quite okay. Shit he said he don’t have a gf. Fuck! At last, everything solved. And he said his ok now.

BUT! I didn’t feel that way. He did text me, but it seems different. When I usually ask ‘what are you doing?’ he gonna say thinking.. then wen I say about what, his gona go thinking of you.. but no he didn’t! he said thinking bout nothing. THAT’S THE FIRST TIME.

I hate fights. Its not cool. At that time I feel like crying. I can handle this now. I love him so much, I would die for him. I wanna marry him. But why he don’t trust me? Is he trying to save me from danger? There are no dangers! Im okay. Im used to it.

So I said to him ‘ why are you treating me differently? And he said that he cant forget about just now. Shit! I feel so bad, but he gotta understand its not my fault.

I hope he does, cause this is hurting me. And I don’t want to hurt him, if I am.. he cant let me go…

Continuation : We settle our problems yesterday at our favourite spot. He said he was sorry and me too apologize for what i've done. But now i know, if anything happens.. maybe i wont tell him. Better?

First & Last

July 2009 was the best days for me as a grown university girl. Life was so good. On 13/10/2009 I had found my first love. The one that I sold my soul to, the one that I tear my heart for, and the one that I want to live with for the rest of my life in this beautiful world. Damn, and again.. life is soo good! Things happens before 13th of July. There was a futsal league in my uni. So I was checking him out cause he was the hottest there in the game.His tall, cute, covered with abs, full with what a girl wants in a guy. At that time, he was wearing red shorts, and black sleeveless shirt. Dang he was looking good. Me and my housemate, Kavina always be checking him out and talking about him in court. He was nice to look at. very nice! The name? Mohammed, but people and me myself call him El-zain or Zain cause theres just to many Mohammed in my uni.
YEA,his Arabian! Sudanise to be exact. African!! But I was into him at that time,even if his malaysian. And as everybody knows, I quite a flirter. Damn! His hot! So after he finished playing, he ran to the other side of the court. Maybe going to his friend, I dont care. Im a spontaneous kind of girl, so i'll do things without thinking..sometimes only! So I called him, and I said :
‘ Zain!’ ‘ya’ ‘ I lose my number can I have yours?’
(We were all laughing like hell!!)( him, kavina and I) And guess what people??!!
I GOT HIS NUMBER!!!SSSSHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYTTT!!
The best thing happened! Its after 12 midnight. Of cause i cant wait till tomorrow to text him.. that dont work on me! So,we text and all. It was very nice. He sounds like his very mature and understanding and fun. I cant stop smilling while im texting him. And i cant wait for the next messege to come. Of the record, i was CURSING AT HIM cause he reply late! I CANT WAIT 5 SECONDS LATE! LOL..So we text till 3 in the morning, and something happen!! I love this part..
he was asking bout my love life. But i told him i dont have a love life yet.
So he asked,
‘ why are you still single?’
I said ‘ because nobody asked to be my boyfriend’
And guess whhhhaaaat!!! for sure u guys are goin... WHHHHHHHHHAAAATTT???!! lol
‘Can I be your boyfriend?'
'Please don’t break my heart’ Ddddddddddddddddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnng!! Lool..

That’s went it all started. Alhamdulillah its been 4 months already. IM HOOKED! I know him better now,I love him very much and I think I wanna marry him.. inshallah! I know its hard, his international im malaysian..HOW? but i want to make thru, i gotta make thru! Thought theres a lot of competitions but we made it thru. And will too in the future. Inshallah with God by my side.Wish me the best bloggers.

Alhamdulillah, amin.~

Nur Kamalia Binti Isa L.O.V.E Mohamed El-Zain Dafalla Babiker Khalid

Lady Jane

Assalamualaikum bloggers,this is not my first time writing but urm,im still new here. Let me tell u guys about myself. The name is Lady Jane also know as Nur Kamalia Binti Isa from Penang,Malaysia. I was first brought to this crazy but beautiful world on May 9th,1991. And now im 18 years old already.Some say im indian,some say im punjabi and some say im arabian. The fact is, im half malay..punjab..arabian. and pakistan. You do the math.My life is complicated, I dont understand it most of the time.But everything is cool. Im living the fullest of it. Im grown up, but not mature enough.. having fun in life but still respecting the rules of the world.. Good girl? Bad girl? Thats ur choice. But i think im okay.Maybe.. Now im currently studying in Unisel, Selangor and taking up Diploma in Business Management. Its quite hard, cause theres accounting and i hate accounting. It is soo complicating. But i do love calculating,Mathematics..Science..and my favourite sub, English. I love studying but not always. I love experiencing new culture, and languages. The languanges that no one else bother to learn. And think its hard. But im willing to take up the challenge. Alhamdulillah I can speak in English, a bit of Mandarin and currently Arabic. Mandarin? I suck..Arabic! Its fun. but damn hard. But thats just me, i love taking challenges. Learning new stuff and experiencing new lifestyles. What else? yea, im the kind of girl who knows how to say no to people but with a more polite way,im the type of girl who love to make other people feels better, im the kind of girl who will agree to some things that maybe will make the other person feel happier. And im the kind of girl who at sometimes will sacrifise somethings for the desire of a true friend.
I love making my life better everyday. i love changging to be better but still me.Fun,happy and a girl who love to laugh and make others laugh too. Those are the things that i think are special bout me, and i love it. I appreciate friends alot and always wants happinest for them. Family too.. Thats the kind of girl i am as Lady Jane.